I wanted to talk briefly
about last week’s post “What kind of mother…”.
Sometimes in my posts,
like last week, I can sound incredibly harsh on myself and sometimes I wonder
whether I should share such dark emotions and self-judgment on “When You Can’t
Have Kids.” I don’t want people to think I am a negative person or that these
types of thoughts and emotions are a significant part of my life.
So, why do I talk
about the darker side of me?
I decided when I
started “When You Can’t Have Kids” that I would be very honest with you all as
to the experiences I have. This includes the good times, but it must also
include the not so good. It must include those experiences that hurt, are
frustrating and are hard to admit to. Like everyone, I’d rather people think I
have it all together, that I am happy all the time and that I have brilliant
self-esteem. But, I don’t.
I am mostly a happy
and positive person and I love my imperfect life, but sometimes that dark
little voice that says “You are terrible, you are not good enough” pops up in
my mind and heart.
I want this blog to
help people who are in a similar situation to me. It’s true that no two people
have exactly the same experiences, but I am sure that everyone has times where
those dark emotions call by for a while. If I share mine, then I hope it will
help other people to realise that these emotions are normal – they are nothing
to be ashamed of. We are all human and that means we have low times. Let me say
that again – we ALL have low times.
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| Happy me in Port Germein, South Australia, with Conservation Volunteers Australia |
I do – and I want you
to remember that when you do, I am here thinking of you, understanding as much
as I can without being you, and sending you a great, big universal hug.
Lastly, I want to
thank Milly and Robin Mary for their comments on last week’s post – your support
for me means the world. And it makes me realise that while I want to be there
for others, others are there for me too – and that touches my heart more than
you know.
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