We always thought we would have kids. We started trying when we believed we were ready. A month went by, then two months, six months, a year. Nothing happened.

Something was wrong, but nobody could tell us what - and they still can't to this day. We tried IVF three times but our results were not good. We were devastated.

Eighteen months after our last IVF cycle, we knew we would not be having our own children. And, somehow, we have moved to a life that is much different to the one we thought we'd have.

This blog is about what we do now we know we won't be having children - the thoughts, dreams, realities, sorrows, and joys that have become our new life path.

I hope you will enjoy what I will be sharing, and I hope that if you are at the point where life without children is a reality for you, that you might find some hope and inspiration here.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Welcome to the pond…

Regular readers will know how much I love my pets – including our fish in our pond out the back. In October last year I was excited to see that some of my fish were ready to lay eggs and that we would have baby fish.

In my 9th of January entry this year I wrote that I had finally realised we weren’t going to be having any baby fish this year. I had only seen a few a couple of months ago and hadn’t seen them since.

Well, it seemed that they were waiting for me to give up before showing themselves! Yesterday I was feeding the fish and two little babies darted in and out of the pond plants. They are too small to see what their colours will be, but they are big enough that they can survive.

So welcome to the pond Sally and Lightening! And, I’ll forgive you for trying to make me out to be a liar my little darlings…

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